Have you ever looked back over events that took place in your life and thought "What the .... " You can pick which ever four letter word that best describes it. These are the moments that were/are life altering, roller coaster, crazy train caught on fire without a conductor, where all you can do is hold on for dear life. These moments can be defined as thin places. Where you felt completely alone. You sat and cried alone. Wondered if the light at the end of the tunnel would ever show up. You sat and wondered, maybe even voiced out loud "Where is God?"
I definitely have thin places in my life. Far too many than I like to admit. I recently joined a ladies small group for the Summer that has challenged me to re- evaluate the thin places in my own life and specifically point out how God was still there. The level of difficulty and amount of anxiety this brought has been its own challenge. It's made me realize that I don't always have to feel the Lords presence inorder to confirm that he is present. Faith is not feeling. Faith IS believing without seeing.
The Lord WAS present through years of emotional abuse. The Lord WAS present through the times I was sexually assaulted as a teen and in my adulthood. The Lord WAS present through times of poverty. The Lord WAS present when relationships ended and my circle significantly got smaller. He brought me through storms and gave me a voice to share parts of my story with anyone who needed it. To give light and hope to those who feel the darkness will never end. He allows me to hurt and struggle so that I can continue to rely on His grace to be sufficient and sustain me. He IS in the thin places of my life that I continue to go through. I promise, if you let Him, He will be in yours.
Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek him.
1 Chronicles 16:11 NLT